Kid from Missouri travels

Christian was making a trailer for his YouTube channel today and decided to include his description: “I am a boy who likes adventures but has sensory issues.” I stopped him to ask if he wanted to include that line. His reply was “yes, I think if people knew I have sensory issues and struggles with balance and noise, they might be nicer to me”. Christian continued to explain: People don’t understand how much different noises bother me.

They also don’t realize that when they bump into me, it feels bad on my skin. Some pressure is good, but too much hurts and makes me fall because of my balance. If they understood my issues and struggles, they would try harder to listen to me and not push me around. I also think if they knew that the regulation room was good for me, they would not think it was just a place for me to go when I am bad. I like to use sand, Play-Doh, fidgets, and clay to help me relax. When I begin to get overwhelmed and frustrated, I can’t take all my surroundings in with all the noises and words they are saying, so it makes me have a meltdown.

They get scared when I have a meltdown, but I get scared before the meltdown, and they keep yelling at me. I think the Learning Lab is like a sensory break I get at my Nana’s when I need to get away and take a minute to focus. People get frustrated with me, but I don’t mean for them to be. I think if they knew I had sensory issues, they might try harder to understand me.

I might even have better friends if they knew what it was like for me each day. Sometimes my hearing is off, and people say I don’t listen, but I just can’t figure out what they are saying. I think we all need to understand what is happening to each other so we know how to treat them. If they understood me and what helps me, it might help me to do better each day. I also get very tired and will have meltdowns just because I am tired, but I don’t always realize I am tired. I have talked about meltdowns before, so I won’t talk about them again.

If I could go back in time

wonder if I went back in time, if I would learn from my mistakes. I have done some bad things and did not do what I know now I could have done differently. I wonder If I went back if people would still be mad at me? I wonder if my teacher would be frustrated? I think maybe I would have more friends? I am not sure if that is possible because I was thinking this morning and realized God knows everything we are going to do.

That is terrifying because if he knows before he knows I am going to do bad things or have meltdowns. I don’t like “would you rather” questions because we don’t know the choices we might make that will be wrong. Like: ‘Would you rather take your dog to school or take snacks?’ I would rather take my dog, but what has someone hurt him, or did he bark and scare someone? I wonder if they would take him to the dog jail? But if I took a snack, what if no one liked it and they were all mad at me?

It is a hard choice, so I do not like “would you rather” questions. I was thinking: if we looked at all the wrong things we did and didn’t try to change, would we be working to be better, or would we just be the same? My Nana’s client told me You want to change so you can get better’. I wonder what ‘get better” is because I told my friend at school I have sensory solutions problems???

I think that is not right, but I know it’s sensory issues- so what does get better mean, I wonder. I think it might be for me to have fewer meltdowns and think before I get mad. It may also be eaten, so I do not get shaky and angry. What do you think?