Kid from Missouri travels

I have not been on my YouTube or written much because my mother was killed a few months ago. It was during Covid, but she did not die from Covid. Someone killed her. I thought this person was our friend, but I guess he was not. I just want to ask him why???
Why would you take my mother away from me? Why did you want to kill her?
I don’t know, but I see people laughing and having fun, and my world has imploded. BOOM! Nothing makes me happy. I am not sad, I am more than sad.
I don’t go to school because I do virtual school. I don’t think I could do school with people asking questions, laughing, and bullying me. I can’t do school. I went to her grave and ran up to tell her something, but remembered she was not there. I have to get used to talking to her this way.
Now it is six months after my mother died, I am at a 10 out of 10 for sadness, and I was at a 20 out of 10, so I am a little better. I still have a hard time thinking that she was stabbed, and I will never see her again. I don’t think I see her on the streets or in the stores anymore. I know she is gone, but I am still very sad.

It is funny that I was so sad, but I got to go on my dream trip to Utah. Maybe it did help cheer me up, but I was always sad, and I did run off from my Nana to have some alone time. Boy, was she mad!